Being in Lynxblade is pretty fun so far; I've been having battle of wits with the bitcher singer, a few rounds of Battle of the Banjo with the guitarist, and a... erm... well, a few rounds of Battleship with the drummer. XD  Really, I spend more time with Phoenix than I do with the others.  I don't know what it is about him besides his accent and his body that draws me to him... maybe I want some of my masculinity to rub off on him.  ... And maybe somewhere deep deep deeeeeeeep down inside me, I want some of his campiness to rub off on me.  ... Really deep.

I'm not sure what to look at him as; he's maybe five years older than me so sometimes he comes across as an authority figure to me.  He tells me to behave while he's walking away and shit like "there will be no drugs in this band."  All demanding in a "do what I say or else" kind of tone... although most of the time he says it with a smile and just expects me to do what he says.  Other times he's just another one of my guy friends I like to hang out with, but usually the kind where they're already in a relationship and/or in that special kind of relationship.  Apparently I'm not man enough to wear a strap-on for them.  ... Ew, that was in poor taste.

Uh, where was I?  Oh yeah, Phoenix.  OK, so he's not gay, but he acts close enough to it I guess it's a somewhat natural instinct for me not to try anything with him.  Still, I don't know why, but sometimes when I see him with another girl or talking about another girl with enough fondness I could feel a little... well, jealous I guess.  I don't know what's the matter with me!  I dunno, maybe I have enough fun with Phoenix as a friend that I don't want him going on about his girlfriend and how good the sex is. 9_9 Yeah, that's it.

If nothing else, I'm kinda annoyed that he introduced himself by both his stage name and real name... I had just then learned that his name is Kitt Darling.  And this was to Skylar Parkyn, who I had passed some tickets to... and who turns out to be his sister. O_o What the FRAK?  ... I guess I never bothered to ask what his real name is, but what the hell, if he introduces himself as Phoenix he might not want to give it out.  Hmm, I wonder what nickname I'll get in the band, since everyone else has one.   Well, I should go; I promised I'd pick up some lollipops and pocky for the next rehersal.