OK, so it's been a few weeks since my last entry... but nothing's been happening! ... Well, I shouldn't say "nothing," what-with the band, school, basketball, and NSK BS I've been absolutely SWAMPED.  I've felt like a watered-down version of myself lately, or maybe I've just been lonely.  I know I promised myself I'd cut down on the casual sex (especially since I was compaired to FullForce by one of my b-ball team mates ... FULL.  FORCE.  OMFG!) but that was a nice source of companionship.  Y'know to feel close to someone, hoping he'd be the one... but he never is.  I've been feeling isolated and that's where it began.

I was sitting at the Kitty Kat Club's bar after band rehershal drowning in shots of some brown stuff--I just told the barkeep "gimme whatever that brown stuff is and keep it coming" so I don't know what the fuck it was--when Phoenix--oh hell we were off the clock--Kitt sat next to me and ordered himself a couple of beers.  He comes on with a "Why so glum, chum?" and then says "Yeah, I'm gay," which I thought he was serious and I was all "I have no use for you, so begone, gay one."  He says being with a gay guy is safe, that with me being a gal meant he wouldn't jump me (yeah I was getting deeply more depressed here XD) but said he wouldn't because he was still straight and actually a virgin.  ... A virgin?  A 26-year-old MALE virgin?  ... Good thing I held back on the casual sex around that time.  Jesus.

I mused that I lost my virginity when I was around 16 and only had 13 different kats (ooo, lucky number, eh Sid? X3 I knew it wouldn't work out but it you didn't even last the full six months! XD) and how I felt they would all fail because they either didn't like me enough to keep going or I couldn't feel a connection that clicked.  Always after a guy to click with...  At that point I was silently wondering if I should just go fully lesbian... but they're such TEASES.  Anyway, Kitt said he wanted to lose his to someone he could trust and be patient with him, and gave me "old man" advice to be true to myself and that he'd be a friend not trying to get in my pants.  ... I told the barkeep to leave the bottle. =_=  He seemed somewhat offended and I explained that when a guy just wants to be friends with me it makes me feel like a supporting "cute" friend in a movie who doesn't get lucky.  At that comment... he actually KISSED ME!! O_O I was all "WTF?!" but I didn't slap him (even though he said I could if he was too forward).  I did blush, but I pinned the blame on the booze.  After some reassurance he asked me out on a cheap date involving bowling and pizza.  It had been a while... so I said sure.

The date was fine... 'cept he kept annoying me and called me "Lady."  For that I beat him at bowling and videogames and shot my straw-wrapper at him, right up his nose! XD  He walked me home, I gave him a little tour... I mentioned how stressed I've been and he said he'd postpone Lynxblade activities until at least the season was over... which seemed to me like a "I'll be sorry for it later" deal.  He kinda changed the subject when he thought he could see activity going on in Crash and Kida's house, which I saw was just blowing leaves reflecting on the grass.  I admitted I was a little bit of a voyeur and asked if I ever gave THEM a show, but I never had guys over often enough to do so (and when I was with Sid they were on vacation).  One thing lead to another and before I knew it I was breaking my promise about defiling him on the first date... but he wasn't trying to keep me away.  ... Well, let's just say he learned more from me than those porn tapes the other band members sneak over. *smirk*

So now we're in a "friends with benefits" relationship.  I feel kinda bad because I'm worried it won't work out... nothing ever does.  We've decided to keep this to ourselves until we're comfortable enough, or at least until I feel comfortable enough to calling us boyfriend and girlfriend.  ... He did call me "Lady" again... and did he end up regretting it... Mwa ha ha.